Why? ... You tell me!

Dear Blog Friends,

Oh, I've been away a long time and how I've missed you. In another post I might tell you where I've been, maybe not, we'll see. But I'm back today and I'm thinking deeply. I want your opinion on my thoughts, so please share.

It's been an emotional time.
So many changes.
So many swirling thoughts.
So many HUGE decisions.
So much stress.



And yet...
Lots of smiles!
Lots of GREAT joy!
Lots of "Miserable-Joy"!
Lots of JOY, none the less.

But beyond the JOY...
The STRESS has been a little over-powering.

I was angry the other day.
It was anger I usually don't engage in.
I found myself BLASTING emails out...
Getting others on my "Anger Bandwagon".

It wasn't a good idea.
Later I felt bad.
I told my best friend because he knew it was a rare occurrence. He told me it was going to be okay. I'm sorry if I wanted YOU to be a
"Bandwagon Jumper".

Through all of this I've found myself ticked at...
Nephi
"I will go, I will do, the things the Lord commands"

Seriously Nephi?
Did you really never question?
Did you really have such

unquestionable FAITH?

This morning I caught ya!
I found out NO,

you weren't unquestionable!

I smiled.

The Lord commanded you to kill Laban
YOU hedged
YOU questioned
It took YOU time to decide if you would
"Go and do as the Lord commanded"

I smiled.

So this my question to you, my Blogger Friends, is ... Why did the Lord command NEPHI to kill Laban? Why did He not command Laman? It would have been an easy task for Laman, he would have smiled at the opportunity to do it. Yet, it was a commandment to Nephi.

Why?
How does this all fit together?
You tell me.

And...
Why does the Lord command me
to do things that would be easier for
YOU?

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